Sweetwater High School Alumni
National City, California (CA)
Karl Raspperry
Sweetwater High School
Class of 1974
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| First Name | Karl |
| Last Name | Raspperry |
| Graduation Year | Class of 1974 |
| Gender | Male |
| Hometown | Nutts Corner, Antrim, United Kingdom |
| Relationship Status | Single |
| About Me | here's karl WARNING...WARNING...WARNING...WARNING... if you easily offended by potty mouth or crazy speech. this might be a great time to turn away and put on hannah montana. no apologies offered. this is one more trip to the shrink. the names have not been changed to protect the guilty. to quote sarah mclachlan, "heaven bent to take my hand and lead me through the fire" i must toss in a little back story. i was hatched into a family of 13 children, same mom and dad. i'm number 7. ah yes the middle child. and i an a carrier of middle child syndrome. what ever that may be. maybe i'm 7 times the idiot of everyone else. growing up in that size of family each chess piece got made fun or was the jokester. one holloween my older brothers thought it would be fun to dress me up as a girl. ha ha ha, very funny. wondering throughout the neighborhood dressed like a little girl. knocking on doors where everyone knows me. oh wait, i could be the funny man. we have a sister that is developmentally disabled. a little slow. ok. very slow. ok very very slow. each day is a new day for her. one day at las palmas pool. i was placing my head under water and blowing out air. i told my sister that you could smell water. you see where this is going. she placed her head under water and inhaled. (thats right clinton) she almost drowned. i thought my mother would never stop beating me. the weapon of choice. ah, the hot wheels track. orange, about 2 feet long with recoil. ouch ouch ouch fucking stop ouch. when you grow up in a family that has someone thats a little slow you think its just someone else to goof. 13 kids, can you believe it. each meal looked like the last supper. dinner served each day at 5 o'clock high. woe be the tide if you're late. what the f*** does woe be the tide mean anyway. better yet who cares. thats what happens when your father was in the navy. test time, name all of them. ready, set, type: ann marie, bobby, john, mike, dorthy, george, karl, eric, alyce, alena, peter(twin), paul(2nd half of the twins), merri. he wins a brand new car, hear the roar of the crowd! many of the kids were spawned during shore leave. 13 kids, my mother is in the stretch mark museum. don't believe me check for yourself. there was a whole lotta shaking going on. the reason there is 13 children...........my mother DID NOT LIKE TO SWALLOW........OUCH, although she likes an adjustable steering wheel because it gave her extra head room. this is how i know that the gods hates me. this is beginning of a cursed life. at seven years old, run down by a drunk driver, 2 and 1/2 blocks from my house. george washingtons' birthday. in a cross walk in front of a church. doomed i tell you doomed. a couple of months in the hospital in skeletal traction. skeletal traction is where they DRILL through the bone and shove a steel pin through the distal part of my femur. here's another one of those moments that just turns you inside out. i awoke in the middle of this mid evil torture screaming. not enough pain medication. now hold on its not over yet. while in the hospital i contracted the mumps. see god piling on. because of the mumps they moved my doomed ass to a quite room, away from all the other little monsters. hold on get ready for it. THE GOD DAMNED PIN SNAPPED! i don't know how long i spent screaming. no good. ITS A GOD DAMNED SOUND PROOF ROOM. the only lucky thing was i passed out. whew. spent 9 months in a body cast. after which my family got great joy taking me to school by a little red wagon. oh, wait its get better. our street "j" avenue was at the top of a hill. hold on this is the set up. down hill gravity. if i smarted off they would just let me go. near the end of this hill was highland avenue. a large road. loads of traffic, even for national city in the 60's. sometimes they caught up with me sometime they didn't. oops! had to have a controlled crash. the best a 7 year old could figure. just turn it over. don't even try to throw anyone under the bus. next time that bus could be on top of that little red wagon. mom would not let me out of the house on george washington's birthday. i guess she knew my angels were out playing cards. " leave the little bastard alone for now". funny thing, one great thing came out of my audition to be a crash test dummy. i got bored trapped in the house. i learned to cook. even was in the first all boys cooking class in high school. my first girl i had a crush on. lets see 5th grade, playing spin the bottle. it landed on my place and the girl sprinted away. left a con trail. i think, looking back i must have been a little dweb or being poor. everyone knew that fact but me. game time in the backyard sometimes involved a baseball bat and golf balls . hmmm, what could be going on here. BATTER UP. we had a monster large back yard. i would smack a golf ball, like tiger woodie.yea right. man, a golf ball would sail when launched by a baseball bat. used to hit them with enough distance to land in highland avenue. maybe a nascar style crash. this is a cool event. i was entertaining myself and was goofing off with the bat. its a 3-2 pitch. fouled off at the plate. in major league baseball they say that a foul ball that goes straight back is a great swing. well this foul tip went through moms kitchen. two perfect holes one entrance and one exit. no cracks, just the holes the glass. the size of the golf ball. thats my espn moment. lets go to the video highlights. teach that to the little tykes in t-ball. i'm only serious. rof lol music music music became my life. i'm still in love with music. i was so stoked to be a part of nat'l city jr. hi. and the marching red devil band. concert band, stage band, pep band, orchestra. wow thats a lotta music. i wish i had returned for my senior year. this was not the cause, but i was blown out of the drum major contest. i dont know who received the honor. who really cares. the slow river path was changing course and i was caught in the tidal flow. sorry freeda....but i still feel horrible about pulling the chair out from you. i can still see my hand reaching out snatching the chair out and you hitting the floor in the band room. you got up its was the slap that was heard around the world. she was senior and myself, a lowly sophomore. freeda thought i had magic hands. first you shout know we never hand sex. though we did some kissing. all i ever reached was first base. she had a great pick off move. (baseball reference) got caught trying to steal 2nd base. always picked off. never seen or touched her tittys. true. i was a young honorable person. yea right. lets get back to magic hands. we would be making out and i would start unbuttoning her shirt first from the top and while she was buttoning those, i would begin unbuttoning the bottom. thats when she said that i had magic hands. how do you do it? ha ha ha heh heh many thanks to debbie, she is not the one "d". debbie allowed for the "d" and i to evolve. fate's magic was casting its spell. now, this is true, really: i was baking a cake for some inane reason. i had known debbie since the 2nd grade. her family loved me because i wasn't a threat to debbie. built up trust. little dirty ernie. i think debbies' parents wondered why i never got involved with her. she liked older men. i mean much older men. you know MEN. with cars and a big, long income. hell, even her mom would let me hang out with debbie dressed only in a bath gown. naked underneath. you bet your sweet ass i took gaze. no cell phones pictures back then. lol i know that debbie will never read this, but, there's an amazing fact. i was just taken back by the fact that she had more hair on her nipples than i had. creeeeepy. lol hairy chest roflol Arab women the same? come on now thats damn funny. i recruited "d" to play the cymbals, i was sure anyone could. easy gig. it was all apart of my master plan to spend time with the "d". it worked. i don't think she was a big fan of what playing music is all about. fear she didn't share the passion. through the years we had it all. "d" i remember your loving eyes, and a moonlit kiss. midnight whispers and midday talks. nights at the beach with friends. the "d" is the only person i know that could wink both eyes. not at the same time, nit wit. this put in to motion events that would lead into many years of therapy. its god damn difficult to reach a mile marker where this shit makes sense. how do you really put into words about the one you allowed to place their hand into yours. the plan was for ever. hell, hit a speed bump. solar eclipse, earth quakes, pestilence, best friend, flood. my world was and is still not the same. i lost you along the way. today its called we were very young. but, what could have put this train into motion? a fact is "d" called ntc before i had arrived at my duty station. the nit wit on the phone, asked if this was another girl that worked about 5 miles away. oops. I NEVER EVER HAD GOTTEN CLOSE TO ACTING UPON ANYTHING. i never even thought about her in that way. never even kissed. NEVER,EVER no matter what you might have told. shit, i hate when people read into things. here's the shit that put into motion that was the precursor to the great divorce. sorry my son you got caught up in the breakup. beau you never knew that you were used as a weapon of mass destruction. i was working in office by myself. i took a bus to work and was running late. could not call(no mobile phones). some of the wacky staff would call just see what i was up to. i always had funny things to say about just everyone. so, nights this girl, a fellow corpsman used to call me. i'm one of those guys that girls just seemed to enjoy speaking with. NO I'M NOT GAY! I DON'T NEED VITAMIN D. I C.AND K. i feel that the women that i have known find it easy to speak, because they feel safe. they knew i'm not going to hit on them. already married. well, one night a woman called and the dude who picked up the phone said that i had not gotten to work yet. asked if she was this female corpsman. the"d" said NO THIS IS HIS WIFE. OH SHIT. a solar eclipse. i never cheated on the "d". facts about the brake up are a little fuzzy. time fogs up facts and relieves the pain. funny fact, her best friend was an indian. not the dot, the woo woo type. her name is treasa bigmountain. she had big. you know what i mean. the guys had to take a xray of her chest. the only was to view the entire body mass was to turn the film cassette side ways. barely fit. i was in a office by myself. people would call me to keep me awake. i had already got busted for sleeping on watch while in corps school. my memories are sort of bent. so we'll not confuse the facts. "d" not all the blame was yours. it takes two to fuck up a marriage. plus an in-law or two. i was taking the bus to work and back. i had a second job. i tried to give my son and wife a better life. no credit for time served. new york jewish accent "ok, now move on". i was a homeless victim of a major disaster, i called the red cross. they refused to send over a nurse. lesson one, never allow any one to be involved with your relationship. let them know you are not invited. but, i did seek advice from joe. thank you! one day i looked in your face, i saw you couldn't care less about our love. our love's going where it began. back in gods hand. i believed in everything you said to me. at the time if someone told me that our marriage would only last 6 months."d" you'd be long gone. i think i'd punch them out. right in the mouth. i'm not proud of some of the things from my childhood. but, i read in a file that she married because she felt sorry for me. discount pity, what a bitch. forced to pay full price for the pain. now lets take a short look at my 17 year.....to be truthful i must include junk from the summer before i jumped into number 17. i went on a trip to alaska. gone for a month. while making love in a pool when i returned, i was informed that someone was pregnant. yea....ha ha ha. the grand plan began to simmer. she said that you don't have to marry me. thoughts, more thinking, ok time is up. no stoppage time added. f***. before i approached the dad with the story. you need a plan (plan your work and work your plan). i was going to forgo my last year at sweetwater. and playing music. forever. after seeking knowledge from pete's grand ma. in her eyes. she could see my love for the "d". she whispered in my ear one day "follow your heart and you'll be true". i wanted to be the father mine was not. joe, you were a powerful force in my early life. karl, i let you down. i let myself down. i broke my promise to be there. i f'd it up. what i wanted and what life had in store for me was to say the least. a complete change in all plans. when i look back and take an accounting of my 17th year, most would say. that was a cool year. i hear the jaws music.....da..da....da...da...da. lets kick over that rock. two weeks after my 17th b/d. holloween. i joined the us navy. join the navy and see you home town. got married, my only son was born, and got divorced, all in one year. the day she left was the day that nixion got bounced. my heart is not a crook. sight gag, place both hands in the air with the peace sign. and say " my heart is not a crook". i used to do sight gags on the radio. many radio stations general managers could never understand my humor. they wanted me to say lame jokes like.....ah, spring is in the air and the dog woods are barking. what kind of fucked up shit is that. i got fired a lot. one time before the record ended. thats an instant dismissal, just add a pissed off general manager. la la la la la take along look at the back of my shirt as i fade into the sunset. if you have ever had you heart excised. not a dulling for the pain. penetrating, like having. well, you know what i mean. one of my favorite yesterdays, is in the swimming pool with my son. this was just a little sweet moment. the mom on the deck. finally alone with my son. why should you retain such a memory? it felt like magic. but, then alone. beau, some tough heart wrenching decisions had to made. i needed to get out of san diego. must put miles between your mother and myself. i asked your mother and lester(what a hillbilly) to adopt you. this was the hardest thing i have ever done in my life. the pain of this caused a major change in my life. i know it changed yours. money was also an issue.i signed those fuckin papers. lester was to be you father. i did not want you to grow up with a last name that did not match. the world is messed up all all by its self. i thought i was doing the right thing. staying away. staying far away. I WAS WRONG, I SHOULD HAVE BEEN A PART OF YOUR LIFE. i wanted you to grow up a little before you had to ask "why is my last name is different"? how come i'm so tall, while everyone that i know in my family is pygmy short. cannibals, needs garlic. why do not even look like the hillbilly and his kids. i'm a foot taller than grandpa and grandma(doris still hates me). crap, i picked the scab off that wound. also, the the "d" would have to explain what happened between me and the "d". i knew if i was a part of your life, your mother would have used you as long as she could as a weapon. i couldn't see you unless i had to see the "d". i was entitled to have you by myself. so what the fuck. there was time i was so much in love with your mother. i would have walked over hot coals for you both. give you a kidney, my heart, whatever was needed. now here we all are. what do you say to a son that has never seen me or remember me holding you. your hugs. your kisses, your little hands. i had one picture when you were 4 years old. it got lost because my sister threw all my yesterdays in the trash. everything was one of a kind. boxes of my radio shows. i taped them all. boxes of jokes. ok, some of those jokes should have been burned. all little gifts from the gods. taped bits. all gone, never to be listened again. i had sunk so low. some of my fellow corpsmen helped lead me through the fire. so much built up pain, sorrow. just a wondering hole. i swear you could read a newspaper through me. i don't want to talk about the stress, i was a part of at the balboa navy hospital, the same place i was in when i broke my leg. attached to the navel training center. hospital corpsman. you don't have to go to war to be apart of some pretty strange sh*t. many suicide attempts, a couple reached the goal. 10 to 20 attempts each month. depending on how many duty nights you worked, could rack up some points. i worked for others for cash. hey money for ptsd. cool. gun shot wounds, hanging, gun shot wound, too many heart attacks to count, auto accidents and more. the doctors and my self murdered a commander (navy rank). i drag that dead cat always. want to see it. i could go on but i shouldn't. it would only bring back the depression. my best friend in the world gone, most likely forever. no one to bounce real issues off of. growing up takes caring. DON'T TOUCH THAT DIAL. WE'LL BE THIS, RIGHT AFTER BACK. found out i'm a grand father.yea. i'm too young. i still have all my hair and i don't need glasses to see. but, good job beau. thats one beautiful boy. i was able to see some birth pictures of the grandson. oops that i thought he was a girl, but seeing those pictures. that nutt sack means he's a boy or a very scary girl. all right the va has diagnosed me with ptsd. now they have a name for whats running around in my head and the things i witnessed. relationships, i've blown through a few. some long term and some one night stands. some even shorter that a one night stand, just 5 minutes, ok, 2 minutes. the last woman i dated used me to time an egg. soft boiled. being on radio, its easy for stalkers know where to find you. while working in las cruces, working alone doing my show. hit radio. this girl was being stalked by one of the young teenage part time talents. he just couldn't put one through the uprights. i don't know why, she was not easy. but, she did like to breed. i digress. where am i, oh yea las cruces new mexico. alone doing a show. are you ready to sing..."all by myself just want to be all by myself". i heard a knock knock at the back door. only myself and the station gm had the keys. no peeking. soo i opened the door and what a surprise for my eyes a naked woman at the door. wearing only champagne. this is a test, can you do a show while being taken advantage of. how much can you make me lose control while on the air. remember all records end. thats why the gotta go song was "american pie" by don mclean. over 8 minutes of relaxation. we dated for a while, her parents hated me. just like most of the women's parents. of course they hated me. i was the kind of guy your mother warned you about. son, married, divorced, loads of fun. i just could not bring myself to lie about the past. oh yea! then why did you use a fake on air name. i need some privacy. i did things on the radio that the person's real name used to get crazy phone calls at his house. this.........................................................................is american idol. in new orleans one guy who shared my name had to move. i caused some shit wherever i went. my traveling show from crazy town. everyone's got so touchy....can't make fun of anyone. i did a promotion with zap's potato chips. you zap me and then i'll zap you with a case of chips. you see where i'm going here. all the jokes were listeners. but, of course the whole world deemed that its my fault for airing some trash. this one is raciest. an african american boy comes home with diarrhea. he told his mama......i'm melting...i'm melting! i don't know if you know much about the demographics of the new orleans radio market. 85 to 90 percent catholic. so this....................................................................................................is american idol and i'm kelly clarkson. sorry brain freeze. on good friday. its a holiday everything closes, worse that christmas. the junk that got everyone's underwear in a wad was "how come jesus does not eat m&m's....cause they fall through the holes in his hands. whoops. tin foiled again. i even dated a school teacher while in douglas arizona this cute chinese america woman. chinese americans in arizona just name. star date 3510.16.12. on the subject of love this ones for you. have you ever felt love? real love. not the bullshit body talk. remember the crush. the one that turned into love. fresh love. untarnished. the feels were so new. you might have the love for math or science? mine was music. there is a love that can divert your fresh eyes from practice to sexy love. for some reason thats the love you carry around in your vest pocket. the first real love. turned you stupid. just plain stupid;) pithy events that allow the track to be turned. shit, i don't even know what i did to loose you. missing you with the relationships failures to follow you. thats right you. you burrowed holes through fresh tissue. you don't care because along with carving knives there's love. you know love. silly love, passing notes, welded together, for together we are super heros! dant da da da...........sooooo stupid, make a sound effect in written form. dumb as a sack of hammers. you promised me you'd be around. i took your words and i believed. remember when we were fools. how could doing the right thing turn into a horrible auto crash. the ones that closed roads for days. feelings all over the place take a while to clean up. the fucked up thing, you never could clean emotions. doesn't matter how much bleach you use that heart will never be new again. no more love to ease the stab wounds. could have liked to have propofol, forget the hole thing happened. i asked a hypnotist to remove you from my tiny mind. replied "no can do". wow you could make billions. mind gone. minty fresh, no purchase necessary, need not to be present to win. member f d i see you later. i think about your face. its just one that comes along like a sun spot. just enough plasma to thaw your mind. send all the little monsters in you head out. trying to round up those little skunks takes time. how about a roach motel. you know a virus, your doctors says that the virus have to run its course. turn your head and cough......you can't use a pitch fork 30 days past september...april...june and november its the new year, the year of the decade. strip mine the old. can't expose those little bastards to the sun. ah, getting a chance to play god. remove the old, replaced with something a little more modern. like a hockey rink. i can't skate for shit. my new year resolution. to strip the tops off the memories of you. add fuel oil, salt. make the soil so that memories will no longer sprout. an emotional dmz. three mile island won't do. as i drove away, i felt a tear. we both had a broken heart. it hit me i was loosing someone. wonder who's crying now? still remembering the beach. smell the warm and salty air. deadly beach chairs. please let me wonder, has that gleam in your eyes faded? don't worry, everything will turn alright. and, i was correct. sort of. but i was cheated. times never last long enough. was your head heavy, like mine, late last night. were you still awake like me? i still dream about you. you, you, you, damn it you. come on over, you don't have to take a stand. allow me to hold you by the fire light. keep the fire burning let it keep us warm. got to let it burn. they'll be someone else. the great pretender here i come. its show time. look at me lying again. nobody knows it but me. where will you go? right now, i'm outside your window with my radio. you're the first true love i've ever known. feel your body rise when i kiss your mouth. dreams can come true. i don't believe you when you say "don't come around here no more". i won't remind you. you said we would never be apart. i guess you don't need me any more. don't honor the warranty, crap. you listened to your friends as they pushed you around. your family took a contract on me. (3 years @00.0% interest) they don't care about me or you. never did, never will. for again, i'm the king of nothing. i'm not saying not to live in the shadow of love. its like an eclipse. some exposed, and some creepy. come back to me, and i'll bring back the sun. all hail the king of nothing. cue the band. baby please let me wonder if i knew your dreams? protect the gene pool. i say! no invite to the dance. keep hitting them with the 10 foot poles. fuck, ouch fuckin' ouch! REPEL BOARDERS! you can't put all the blame on him. he tried to melt in. too little to add to the greater good. i say, cull him from the heard. bbq time! do you love me? still, i have the warmth of the sun. wouldn't be nice. i fear that i'm part of the krell. lost for 100000000000000000000000 centuries. why don't they let me come home. YOU ARE EVERYTHING AND EVERYTHING IS YOU? should have know you were trouble from the first kiss. take it all. i gave it all. it still wasn't enough. i tried to climb on that lovers cross, even brought my own nails. you bring the mallet. its a date. there was a time when i would have stood in front a train for you. tell the devil "hi" when you get back where you're from. you told me you loved me but, you are a liar. if i was on fire and you'd watched me burn. you knew i was locked up and you still took all i had. hit the beat. i'm running back to you. let me be the one. i want to be the one your kissing and hugging. i don't believe it should take so long to find that special one i could have all my own. i got a letter from the postman the other day. just to let me know exactly the way you feel. if you should feel that i don't really care. let me reassure you that you can count on me. i'm the one thats loosing ground. loosing all doubt. i used to be your guide. i had visions of many things. now i'm walking in shadows searching for light. you beat me to the punch. when you came around my heart would pound. pitter patter! you could never tell. once, i had known you could make the clouds disappear. honey, its true theres just you. last week i was out and i saw someone who looked just like you. i thought is was you. i felt so ashamed. had to take several long looks. how can i forget? it wasn't you. although, i wanted and needed it to be you. i don't see ghosts. still i have viewings. painful past. dead people. the ones who's last breath was in you face. the cold creeps in. creek goes the floor. memories have a heavy foot. if you listen hard enough you can hear my footsteps. come by, just like a whisper. almost no one understands. i could buy a house we both could live. its out of my hands, she's out of my life. should i laugh or cry? don't know. you left me, how could this be. i'm still alone. how did i let you slip away? just the other night i thought i heard you cry. asking me to go. your burdens i will bare. why? everyday i sit and ask myself, how did it slip away. someone tell me "why" how could this be, you're not here with me. still my heart says, "you are not alone". i am here with you. another day is gone.......... gone......... gone...... you should have allowed me to kiss you. you had a chance. i tried, you withdrew now it slipped by. how could we be apart? i guess it was a bad breath day. its out my hands. to think for 2 years, you were here. now, should i laugh or cry? the way it stands, i'm out of your plans. i keep my love for you locked deep inside. i'm wishing on a dream. all the rainbows i've seen. never thought i'd see the time you were away from me. i could no longer hold your little hands. i feel its time we should make up. i feel its time for us to get back together. make the best of things we dreamed. remember when i told you everything would be alright. the plan. plan your work, work your plan? what! make it a better place :} for you and me. we can take a little space and make it our better place. apologize, i can not. this is what is chasing me. now you know "the rest of the story", paul harvey, good day. ptsd.....i have failed to mentioned that i see dead people. i was speaking to a veteran that i met yesterday. the subject came up about seeing dead people. i see dead people! you never forget the faces of people who have died and exhaled their last breath in your face. i said it was a face you never forget. this went off like a bottle rocket. some who could see the same things i see. finally someone who has and is still seeing what i'm seeing. each and everyday. something will come in my mind an poof, dead person face. just for a breath. i'm tired for this shit. seeing this stuff makes me heavy, too much gravity. i have been carrying these little gems for most of my life. i never, until yesterday, an light shone on what the fuck my mind was seeing. swear you could here the thud of the switch being turned. this is the best thing i can tell my yesterday friends. the ones i pulled under the water. what can i do the explain all wreckage of my yesterdays.maybe tomorrow will be silence. there is never enough time to repair a relationship. i guess i should have a doggie treat. because all guys are dogs. women are so f'n crazy. the hunt is on. RELEASE THE HOUNDS! was making fun of god again. i came up with some that are sick and wrong. picture this, i know i'm going to heaven i'm going to be seated just next to his right knee. and god rapping his finger tips on my head. tap trap tap......... you know that the romans gave jesus a break while his was carrying the cross.....each time he dropped the cross. i digress, its time to dance away the night. tonight i've fallen and can't get up. i need your loving hands to come and pick me up. and every night i miss you.it hurts so bad sometimes not having you here. i wish you were here with me. did i disappoint you? i've been addicted to you. i'm here for you if you'd only care. i'm a hazard to myself. i'm my own worst enemy. the smell of you skin lingers. i hope you know. i hope you know, this has nothing to do with you. the path i'm walking i must go alone. i foresee darker sky's ahead. here's a thought, all the mayan people disappeared, gone without a trace. just think about this. what if the mayan disappearance was the rapture. it sucks to be a sinner. you won't find nobody else like me. lol there were days when we sky sailed among the clouds. i miss when you placed your head on my chest. all those weekends on the beach. pete and i an army of gnomes (one). (not gay, just a great friend), going to the drive inn movies. wore out a set of shocks. we each had a girl friend. debbie and the"d". the circus has fallen down on its knees. the big top is crumbling down. its raining here. i need a phone call, i need a plane ride. these strange conversations passing me by. i don't have nothing to say. you get what you pay for. i need a sun burn. i get no answers, don't get any change. things i remember, the things i forgot. i miss you. i guess that i should. what would you change if you could? i need a phone call. i guess its time to............its raining here in gainesville, i need a raincoat. i can't believe it. you're a dream coming true. how could i know i was lost without you. i want to tell you, you control my brain. i can't believe it you have fallen for me. i'm not done with the night. your words in my head got me mixed up. i don't know how to slow it down. i wish you were here with me tonight. never thought not having you here would hurt so much. ALERT.....ALERT.....ALERT...... THIS IS A TEST OF THE EMERGENCY BROADCAST SYSTEM. THE IS ONLY A TEST. DON'T WORRY ABOUT THE INSIGNIFICANT THINGS, NO MATTER HOW IMPORTANT SOMEONE ELSE MIGHT THINK THEY ARE. END OF TEST........END OF TEST....... search for, i really need you. i can remember the first time we ever met. the sun was shinning. love was gleaming in the air. you caught my eye and the next thing that i knew i was in love. i was soo in love with you. we were so close for a season of my life. i wanted so much to have you for my wife. something changed. came to an end. we had to part. that's where my heartache begins. part of the getting married is the hunt. not for women, but to do the thing that you set in to motion. ah, a good 'ol fashion shot gun marriage. i even stumbled on the part that stated "repeat after me" oops. we looked high and low to find my father to sign off on the marriage and the papers for the navy. we drove to yuma, az on a rumor that the d and i could begin our short hitch. if you dare ask your grand father about how much work went into getting married. i asked a women friend to marry me. gave a ring and everything. WARNING...IF YOU'RE GOING TO BUY A RING AND SHE OPTS OUT GETTING A DIAMOND AND GETS HER BIRTH STONE. Y O U A R E F U C K E D. $500 dollars for a ring that is now a piece of shit. how fucking stupid take that as a salvo across the bow. that is the end of your relationship. just a little pearl of wisdom. thats the moment a tsunami is coming. when i met you the world was new. lingered there, to touch your hair and walk with me. those days and nights went flying by. one day it called to you, now you've come and gone. still the days go on and on. i lost you to the summer wind. sigh, (breath in and out). now comes the heavy depression. you were the one who let me go. why should care if you found someone new. you look like you're in love. why should i care that he looks a lot like me. i'm not sure why i called. i guess i needed to talk to you. the moon is out tonight. i'm not talking about moving in, and i don't want to change your life. i'm done with trying to convince myself you care. if you ever did. shake your head from side to side in discuss. shes been afraid to go out. shes afraid of the knock on the door. who comes to call. anyone at all. it used to be her town. seems like her girl friends might be talking her down. people got used to seeing us together. now i'm gone, and life goes on. nothing lasts forever. do you remember? you have no right to ask me how i feel. you miss me sometime when your alone in your room. i held on, to let you go. if you lost your love for me you never let it show. well i go to the river to sooth my mind. ponder over the crazy days in my life. sit and watch the river flow. ease my mind and soul. moments fall like rain, into the city light, there goes another night. lose my breath like waves. everyone keeps talking, promising you everything. they don't mean anything. say good-bye, those days are gone. i need some relief from these hard times. a hundred days have made me older sense i've seen your pretty face. a thousand lies have made me colder. all the miles that separate. i'm here without you, baby. you're still on my lonely mind. i think about you and dream about you all the time. i pretended i'm glad you went away. the nights are lonely and days so sad. like a clown, i put on a show. pain is real even if nobody knows. my world is tumbling down. i could say it so clearly, but your nowhere around. i just keep thinking about the love we had. and i'm missing you. nobody knows it but me. lie wake its a quarter past three. i'm screaming at night if i thought you could hear me. how blue could i be. the distance in your eyes, oh no i've said enough. consider this, life is bigger than you. i thought i heard you crying. thats me in the corner. trying to keep and eye on you. and i don't know if i could do it. every waking hour, i'm choosing my confessions. oh no i've said too much. i needed you to lead me through the fire. truth be told i've tried my best. the cost was more than i could bare. i've tried falling, i've sunk so low. i messed up. better, i should know. don't come around here and tell me i told you so.tonight i've fallen and i can't get up. i need your loving hands to come and pick me up. and every night i miss you. i can just look up and know the stars are holding you tonight. i remember the car you were last seen in. how fucked up, when i turned the radio in YOUR car. i guess not everything is equal, even if you say so. bitch. should have walked away for good. when it hurts soo bad sometimes, not having you here. i wish you were here with me tonight. i bet you didn't see this in your dreams, or maybe you knew all along. i did not see it coming. i'm still searching bit by bit of scrap wood. maybe i'll find the shower that will cleanse me of all the pain? i can never be sure. i wish on all the rainbows i've seen. just think about the moments that we've spent. this is one of those days.....i feel we should make up. i feel its time for us to get back together. sometimes the world is unkind. depressed again today, she's out of my life. another day is gone. my world is so cold. couldn't we just play rock, paper, scissors. i'd still loose. you are the one that makes my poker face smile. i'm here on my island of hope. you just walked way. close your eyes and make a wish. the following is true. i'll bet you anything. no one you know has ever had this situation. gather around the grandma and the kids. keep this in mind "dislocated jaw". maybe no children, this story get weird quickly. once upon time. i began my first paid radio job in douglas arizona. small town radio. fast food was the sonic drive inn. this part of the back story you'll need to know. it goes downhill from here. the radio station went dark. its not what you think. the company decided to shut down the air because of lack of cash. now paul and myself were now out of a job. oops. bring in linda barks. tall, slender, smart and sexy. oh, she also liked to have sex and was great at it. linda was also on the air at the other radio station in town. the owner of the other put a challenge to linda. gave her the job of tracking me down and getting me to come over to his station so i could make him a pile of money. its not called dj's, its radio talents. yea right! i decided to make the move to kdap am doulgas, az. the station on the other side of the rail road tracks. neither linda or myself knew she was on kamikaze mission. she was blown out as soon as i made a deal with the BIG MAN. thats crappy, but, thats radio. linda put up a good assault. dated for a couple months. this was during one of the on and off seasons with dana. brought me home to meet the mom and dad. they loved me. i was always invited to dinner. the story, i know this part is a little slow. i even told this story to a friend while i was working on el paso radio. linda wrote me a letter confirming the validity of this tail. my friends thought this was an un-truth. linda was on the radio in bisbee, az. sooooooo linda and i were having a great round of sex. she liked oral, giving and receiving. this time something went horribly wrong. while preforming oral sex on my "russel the love muscle". right at that moment, you know that toe curling moment. she dislocated her jaw. WHAT! thats right boys and girls. quick, must get linda to the hospital emergency room. holy shit! i kneed a story that must stick. oh, ha ha must stick. it was a long ride to the hospital. to me it seemed like a trip around the block. with in this time must think. but, captain i'm doing the best i can. (use scotty's voice). here's a moment you might cringe or get grossed out. it is what it is. you know when men have that special moment, they leave behind some dna. well this dna was drooling down her mouth. hot dog breath. all over her face. squirt. here's the story...will it stick. h a h a. when we got the the hospital i told the doctor that she asked for a bite of my foot long hot dog. thats when she dislocated her jaw. ahhhhhh ahhhhhh i'm not an animal. got to throw in a gurgle for good measure. i did not care if the doctors believed the story. if mom and dad believed that would be a miracle shot. squirt. they bought the "taking a bite of my foot long". hooray! three chinese cheers...PHOOEY... PHOOEY...PHOOEY. no one noticed that special sauce is not from sonic........ too sticky for mayo. talk about getting one all the way. she wrote me a letter(yea, mail snail mail). it that letter she said that she didn't dislocate her jaw on just anyone. my radio station friends could not believe that the story's true. i was in an 11 year relationship, she made me toss(lol) out the letter. sorry linda. just try to beat that story. ah , in the heat of the night. i can tell you its true. i came along to see your face. the only thing i got from you, is telling me its fantasy. i'm waiting here. but, its alright. i guess its a like a mountain side. you got to climb it to the top. floating in a sea of dreams. the only thing you can see is the view above the clouds. i'm waiting here. but, its alright. still its alright with me. you better believe me now. sitting here waiting for someone calling at my door. to bad, i'm getting out of love. what's the use of changing things? wonder what tomorrow brings? who knows. i'm getting out of love. so sad. she seemed to drift out on the rain. i got a message from the radio. where it came from i don't know. everybody around the world is going to feel it tonight. all over the world. you made a fool of me. the evil woman. there's a hole in my head where the rain comes in. its a crying shame. but you got nobody else to blame. the bump and run that leads nowhere. ah, ha....... funny how you broke me up. bug dust;) i can't wait to hate you. that line is getting closer. can't see it, yet. the smell is pungent. somewhere between shit and puke(remind me i have neat story about puke and a bus ride). i guess its time for you to hate me. bring it on!!! it would appear that you made it over that mountain. don't spit on me. this has nothing to do with you. why is always about you. you're not invited. this one's for you wherever you are! its hard without you. i'm coming home. tell the world i'm coming home. i'm going to miss you everyday. i can not hold this anymore. this is a black and white of you i found. i'm going to miss you everyday. i get lost sometimes, another year fies by. you can take me back in time. it gets lonely; still. i really don't like your arrogance. 99% embarrassment, thats me. i don't mind it if you ________, brings out the best in me. i like it when you __________________. can i have some please. show your expertise. no more apologies from me. this............................................................................................................................................is american idol. i'm kelly clarkson. i have a mind to walk away. i know you'll never change. don't like your point of view. i can't hold this anymore, arms are too heavy. you would look a lot better, don't you know, if you wore less make-up. shut-up and put your money where your mouth is. its what you get. i've been known to have a heart that love couldn't find. i used to come and go, no thought of what was left in my wake. when you were gone. felt that stars, were pointless to shine. on my own, i'm just a wast of time. never meant to live without you. let the rain wash away forgiveness. all the pain from yesterday. your eyes, staring back at me. my heart starts to skip a beat. i pray that you'll never know. i've fallen. and you look in my eyes. your make delirious. close my eyes. let the whole thing pass me by. do i expect to change the past i hold inside. i want you so bad its my only wish. oh no! hope is trying to make its way to the front of the line. pardon me, excuse me, pardon me....... take off your jeans, so take them off for me. show me what you got underneath. so we can do this properly. tonight its been years. we met each other here. here i am all alone. thoughts of you come. hear me crying out to you. i loved you, you didn't feel the same. though we're apart you're in my heart. give me one chance to make it real. here's a tear from me to you. i am speechless thats how you make me feel. when i'm without you, i'm far away. i'd go anywhere just to touch your face. helpless and hopeless thats how i feel inside. i'm humble in your grace. tell everyone that misses me, i'm alright. even fool can see. i've been known to have a heart that love couldn't find. i used to come and go. no thought of what i left behind. but now, somehow i've grown. to see the world with brand new eyes. a better world you've shown to me. i can't go any further than this. i what you so badly, its my only wish. can you met me half way. i'm going to wait at the borderline for you. took my heart to the limit thats where i'm going to stay. here comes my hero! quote alert!!!!!!!!!!! dance like no one's watching love like you've never been hurt and live like its heaven on earth.............mark twain time to do the lambada........the dance of love. its such a good vibration. come on feel it. here's the thing we started out friends. it was cool. you were dedicated, you took the time. i can breathe for the first time. thanks to you, now and again, i get what i want. you had your chance you blew it. out of sight out of mind. shut your mouth. you don't own me any longer. i DO NOT HAVE TO LISTEN. (HANDS OVER YOU EARS) LA LA LA LA LA. I DO NOT HAVE TO EXPLAIN ANYTHING TO YOU. YOU DID THIS TO YOURSELF. i just can't take it. i'm so moving on. another day is gone. just put the blame on me if helps you sleep through the night. tell everyone that knows me, fuck off. well, i wish it would rain. let rain down from the sky. it would be a great disguise. maybe then you wouldn't see the tear drops in my eyes. in all tear drops that fall down upon my face. erase all the memories of you and your embrace. i long for the moment i lose this bitter taste. and i don't want you to see me this way. lets all hold hands and sing..........my shattered dreams and broken heart are mending on the shelve. now i sit all alone, wishing all my feelings were gone. i gave my best to you. nothing else left to do but to have one last cry. before i leave it all behind. just one last one cry. do you remember. we never talked about it. but i know the blame is mine. i'd call you,to say "i'm sorry". i wouldn't want to waste your time. i relied on my illusions to keep me warm at night. nothing seems to help sense i went away. been up all night drinking to drown my sorrow. still alone, i'd love to go back home. to the sand surf and girls. pretty girls. and i'm the dirty old man. can't eat the candy, but its fun to make the wrapper make noise. you lied to me, all those times you said "i love you". you lied to me, even though you knew i'd die for you. you lied to me, you said you'd never turn on me. but, you did. first rule of dating. never ever date girls with a boyfriends. you'll only be the victim. oh wait for it......................................WERE JUST FRIENDS.........................bitch. put a wooden stake in her cold black heart. another bad decision is to date someone who's mate had just died. picky picky this is the truth that men will date anything with a pulse. ok no pulse, just heat her up. no one will know if you don't tell. you must remember that when you tell something about yourself. you know longer own that information. that nit wit you shared those little nuggets are going to talk. blab blab blab. more feelings on the loose. i would like for one more night. i give everything just for one more night. i guess its not in the stars. those are ones that brought us to this fucked up train wreck. why must i be the one who's dragged along the tracks. something always brings me back to you. never takes too long. no matter what i say or do i still feel you here. you hold me without touch. keeping without chains. never wanted anything so much. set me free, leave me be. i don't want to be held by your gravity. you loved me because l'm fragile. i'm the way i'm supposed to be. i'm been thinking about how i got the here? why must the path be so painful. i'v lost all joy in my life. the most fun i have is making fun of others. jesus jokes are a mainstay. i guess shit in, shit out. when your feeling lonely and small you still can call me. this is worse that a broken heart. an absence of heart. i don't have energy enough to climb that mountain. being on crutches make the journey long, slow, and painful. re-tear of my ACL. its the wrong kind of a four wheeling. gravity is dragging down the hill. i miss the hills of san diego. even national city. the cool nights. here in florida is 89 degrees and in the 70's at night. no cool night for months. i miss the nights on the beach. the fire rings, listening to harry chapins' "taxie". cruising around, drive in movies. the sound of the may time band review. marching proud to be a red devil. i was part of the red sock gang. if my band mates read this, they'll understand. i want to give you some sweet love on the night shift. hold her tight, i'm going to treat you right. watch her run, can you feel it. give me another chance, please. i'm on my knees. you have no idea how much pain i'm in. there goes my hero, watch her as she goes. music interlude: acoustic version; losing my religion by R.E.M..........thats me in the corner. someday when my life pasted me by. i'll lay around and wonder why you were always there for me. just close your eyes and i'll take you there. this is warm without a care. i go to leave and you reach for me. some say better things will come my way. i hear a song from another time, and fade away. its such sweet sensation. feel it. turn on your heart light. some times the world ain't kind. i'm looking for a home. come on, let me hold you darling. how could this be, you're not here with me. feels like you rock my world. girl you came and changed, my world will never be the same. i can not explain the thing i feel for you. so much water running under the bridge. this is for all the lonely people. thinking love has past them by. don't speak. i know just what you're thinking. memories, they can be inviting. raise you hands and repeat after me. OH HAPPY DAY! do you believe in magic? you can't change that. don't you care. ok, time for another true story. i'm a guy. i like naked women just like the next guy. i don't go to strip clubs. its not because of any extreme believes , or this be the thing that will send me to hell....once upon a time in el paso, texas. i was working for a couple of radio stations. one was soft rock. kiss. we used to give away giant chocolate kisses. el paso spells kiss kys. the station was kysr. this was part of george johns consulting radio stations. all kiss stations. i was hired by jason williams, smooth voice. he admired the fact that i can laugh on the air. he said he could not laugh with an open mic. i began working on the weekends. so i was looking in the want ads. i see they need a disc jockey at a club called "the naked harem". all nude. all the time. they never knew how much excitement a professional dj could bring to the club. doing intro's to records. never stopping the music. playing requested music from the dancers. better music means, shake that groove thing. take it off, take it all off. more shaking means better tips. the dancers kept me going with all kinds of favors. weed, acid, etoh, even some sex, during work. aaaahhhh. sometimes a gang of us would goto mexico and dance 'till dawn. all the girls liked me. memories! a girl i was dating in las cruces didn't like the fact that i was around naked women all the time. i probably should have married her. she was in love with me. she asked me to marry her. shes the one at the door naked at the radio station. this is cool, she took out a billboard and mentioned it was my birthday. has anyone done that for you? like i said she was madly in love. beth wanted me to move with her to houston, texas. i did not think i could find a job working on the radio in houston. she begged me to come(lol) with her. i never asked anything from her. money, gas or picking up the tab. that was all mine. don't worry i'll get back to the naked harem. while working in las cruces i dated several women. all with the same "b" at the beginning. beth, barb, bev. my roommates would leave me cryptic notes when some called. they just left off the "b". arb, ev, eth. i even dated a black women. dated a black women in the southwest before it was fashionable. i took her with me to concerts in el paso. cheap trick and aldo nova. plus a band with their first hit bon jovi. well i was given some speed from a follow talent. a gift. i was taking a night off. onward to the concert. seagrams 7, weed, and speed, nice! this one event i must apologize to the guy i bumped into. the drugs were beginning to turn on me. i felt a tummy ache, felt a uneasy. sea sick. i was off to the mens room. this dude bumped into me hard. hit me in the stomach. like a balloon, what goes down must go up. just barfed all over this guy. just one giant explosion. hit this, boo ya. that'll teach that guy from bumping into tall people at a concert. london bridge is falling down, falling down, a new mens body spray, barf. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm barf. (like homer). lanelda, she just happened to be the news girl during my morning show. while on a remote with for the country radio station, this was an automated station. this club was hosting a battle of the bands. the sponsor was Seagrams 7. they were nice enough to send me a case before the contest. i guess this was to ensure that i would be at my highest. soooooo, lanelda and i went to this club. i was seated with a group of women friends of lanelda. one was beverly. not too tall, daring blue eyes. bev and i hooked up that night. beverly's shoe and my foot were having sex. gave birth to some flip flops. lanelda never spoke to me ever again. the nice thing was that she had read her news from a studio, that i could not see her. one hooked up, one off the hook. i guess black to white=so much pain. once you go black, watch out for the knife in your back. ouch, stop it. somebody call 911, 411, ems, help. fucking stop. as soon as i was hired to a job at one radio station. i would begin my search for a new radio station. thats how i got to el paso. back to the naked harem. a 100 bucks each night plus all the drugs and drinks i could handle. this might sound a little strange. after nearly two years of naked women. i just got tired of looking at naked women. burnt out. i still enjoy a sexy naked woman, ooh la la? i don't feel the need to watch the bottom feeders work. what do dancers and catfish have in common.....they both have whiskers. i lost my love for you and never let show. its so typical love leads to isolation. you have no right to speak to me so kind. i just might find myself looking in your eyes. there's a place for us. peace and quiet, wait for us somewhere. i hear the blame was mine. there seemed no way to make up. you could come over to my side. you don't have to stay with someone who makes you cry. you'll end up killing the love you hide inside. its hard to see the sun unless you open your eyes. do you remember? the things we won't recall. the feelings we'll never find. i never told you. i miss those blue eyes, how you kissed me at night. i miss the way we sleep. i like the taste of your smile. i never told you....i miss everything about you. can't believe i still want you. after all the things we've been through. i miss everything about you. i always wanted someone like you. i still love you. in the night i'm going to take it real slow. i won't do anything to hurt you. why don't we lie down. i'm going to give all my love to you. i'm still longing for you. it not always butterflies and rainbows, its compromise that moves us along. i used to know you when we were young. i'm standing on the bridge. i'm waiting in the dark. i thought you'd be here by now. isn't anyone trying to find me. won't somebody come and take me home. its a damn cold night, i'm trying to figure out this life. won't you take me by the hand take me somewhere new. i'm looking for a face. is there someone i know? i won't allow myself to be smothered in a life that consumes me. something has been taken from deep inside of me. a secret i've kept locked away. no one can ever see. wounds so deep so they never show and never go away. like movie pictures in my head, for years and years they play. sometimes i remember the darkness of my past. bringing back these memories i wish i didn't have. sometimes i think of letting go and never looking back. never moving foreword so there would never be a past. she was like nothing like i've ever known. her eyes shine like diamonds in the field of snow. met our destiny, led her to me. made her feel that life is now complete. now some days have past and nights gone by. i can see the glow slowly fading from her eyes. though she denies her pain and her dismay. though i said this to her anyway. don't have stay with someone that makes cry. you'll end up killing all the love you have inside. can't hope to see the sun if don't open your eyes i know your nervous but, take it from me. cause you deserve so much, more than you receive. listen to your heart and let it show. don't hold on to your pain just let it go. girl don't let real love pass you by. nothing is promised to me and you. so why will we let this thing go. i'll never leave and everything will be alright. forever is such very long time. don't let no one change your mind. because they don't know how much i care. they don't know the things we share. they must be here to see with their own eyes. how can they say i'm not true? i pray to god that one day they'll see. they'll see that i'm all that you'll need. think about all the times said, i'll see you another day. if you need love. i have the love that you need. you mean the world to me. i'll never do anything to hurt you. you got to believe in love. the power of love. when i say goodbye its never for long. cause i know our love still lives on. hold me closer and feel the power. because i believe in the power. when your close i can feel your power. hold me tighter and take me higher and feel the fire of the power of love. tell everyone you see about the power of love. can't stop until we're one. i won't listen to the voices. echo's of baby pigmy's gnawing on bone. you can't deny it. let the feeling sweep you off your feet. you thought your love was locked up deep inside. tell everyone to try. i promise you'll reach the sky. hold me closer. love is something you should not try to hide. hope has a place in a lovers heart. close your eyes and you can feel it straight from above. one look at life, strange how you look at all the goodness around you. not even night vision goggles needed. cool waves wash over me. i'm mad about you. are you mad about me? a couple of fools run wild. one plus one. i gave you a look before we spoke. happy that i met you. it must be a full moon. for awhile i've been watching you steady. i'm not going to make a move until you're good and ready what more can i say to you. i know i should make the move. i'd write your name. but, like a fool. you smiled and my brain went to black. i can see your face and your baby brown eyes. your soft kind voice. i can't recall anything you said. i was taken over by your smile. isn't it scary. how can a man like me convince a girl like you? how can i make you see me? i want you so badly, its my biggest wish. i want to be the one. i know i caught your eye. you have me waiting for the night so i can dream about you. you have to believe there's something inside of me. i want to show you.tender words you say take my breath away. your smile, lights up the whole world. please, please, please, let me get what i want this time. do you believe in life after love? do hear me talking to you. i try to chill. you're soo hot i melt. open up your plans and damn you're free. i called your boss and he knows your not coming in today. you're like my favorite hard candy with a surprise center sitting on the beach. tell me your religion is sunsets. your race is to be kind to as many people of whom don't expect it. i'm not broke, i'm just a broken hearted man. tell her where i am. i've got words on sun bleached cow bone. here's to a lovely girl, smelling sweet and soapy like fresh air. i needed to see you. now i act like i don't care and you'd be correct. even to the angels it may sound like a lie. even your daddy knows i'm just a fling. why am i hungry for the girl i used to date.we were waiting for the bus. i liked you eyes. i'm stunned in a daze, you had the street set ablaze. the flower of our love blossomed. for you, i have the troops and extra back-ups standing by. my arms are tired of the things i pick- up. this a black and white of you i found. i get lost sometimes. but, i know if i try, memories of the light in your eyes can take me back in time. you hold me without touch. keeping without chains. no matter what i say or do. i still feel you here. set me free. leave me be. i don't want to stuck in you orbit. i'm torn. i'm just the way i'm supposed to be. you're on to me. all over me. one thing i know you're keeping me down. you're not a friend or foe, though i still can't let you go. you're on to me. now, back to the pretty woman with the brown hair and the soft voice. i've seen you. you made a move. you spoke to me. me? why? why not? so soft and kind. you ask, how are you? do you mean it? i got somebody, she is a beauty. very special. really and truly. you take care of me like its a duty. don't let it show. i don't mean to stare. but, physics did the dirty work. ah gravity....... kind of graceful when it wants to. kind of like being in the right place at the right time. as everyone knows men are pigs. oink oink i had to gaze. perfect, smooth. ahhh memories of a yesterday. i've seen a shiny penny. boo yaa i want more than a moment. i'm not trying to lease. no renting, i want to make my move to own. i want to make her mine. i want to prove that i'm ill replaceable. i'd do this all again. i don't care what they say. are you going to be my lover? i've got what you need. if its love, i want to fall. i promise i'll be here through it all. i told you once, pay attention, i'm going to tell you twice. i've been around world but, i've never known anyone like you. whats mine is yours. i'll give you anything you need and just name your price. i've everything you need. there's a place and a time for us. time together, someday a time for us. all you have to do is to hold you hands to heaven. peace and quite. i read all the letters. i read each word that you sent to me. though its past now. your words start to fade. all the memories i have, still remain. i've kept all the pictures. i hide my feelings so that no one knows. oh sure my friends all come around. i'm in a crowd on my own. its because your gone now. the heart still remains and it will be here if you come again. see, i've heard the rumors. i knew before you let me know. i didn't believe it not you. no you would not let me go. seems i was wrong. love remains. and thats the one thing. you can't take away. remember......if leaving me is easy.....and you know, coming back is harder. i'm nothing without you. i never thought that you'd be the one to hold my heart. you came around and then you knock me off the ground from the start. you put your arms around me, i'd believe that its easier for you to let me go. you put arms around me and i'm home. i hope that you'd see through my walls. i can't decide if i'll let you save my life or if i'll drown. i hope that you'll catch me because i'm already falling. the world is coming down upon me and i can't find a reason to be loved. i tried my best to never let you in to see the truth. don't comeback anytime i've already had your kind. this is your pay back. you've already robbed me blind. i'm showing you the door, good-bye. you're talking double. like the time you said to fight for me. 'cause i'm in trouble. here's my advice. i don't think twice for the price of a cheap dime whore. why couldn't it be some other way instead of heartbreak and tears and everything else. we both know about heartbreak and tears. there really isn't much you can say. you c...(read more) |
Class of 1974 Alumni
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Joslyn Moore
Class of 1988
Jessi Lopez
Class of 2009
Brian Colvin
Class of 1965
Larry Stevens
Class of 1963
Epati Lilio
Class of 1967
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Class of 2018
Charlie Thomson
Class of 1963
Sarah Bundy
Class of 2001
Ronald Callahan
Class of 1967
Greg Massey
Class of 1990
Jesus Jesus Jimenez
Class of 2002
Kellie Frame
Class of 1980
Joy Turner
Class of 1978
Hazel Lowry
Class of 1961
Viviana Herrera
Class of 2005
Robert Bentley
Class of 1976
Mario Montes De Oca
Class of 1983
Robert Jameson
Class of 1989
Barbara Jimenez
Class of 1972
Marie Weldon
Class of 1990
Armando Acosta
Class of 1991
Rose N/a
Class of 1980
Rudy Estrada
Class of 1980
Sergio Bustos
Class of 1995
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Classes of '79, '80 and '81 Reunion
Invited Classes: All Classes
Date: Sep 13, 2019
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SUHI Classes of 1978 and 1979 - 35/36 Year Reunion
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Date: Oct 18, 2014
Description: Final plans are imminent for our joint reunion! Invitations with the final details will be emailed, mailed and posted o...(read more)
Reunion Fund Raiser Class of 1973
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Date: Jul 27, 2013
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